You’re looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black.

Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you’ll be right back.

Well, it takes one to know one, kid,

I think you’ve got it bad.

But what’s so easy in the evening by the morning’s such a drag.

“I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like “I don’t feel well”
“I ate before I came”

So last night my grandma came to have dinner with my family. The first thing she said was “you look like you’ve lost a lot a weight! You look amazing!” Talk about a huge confidence boost! But we had dinner around the dinningroom table… which we never do. So I had to eat. I had a low fat turkey dog and half a peice of cantalope. But I purged it all out. I felt so guilty that I just had to get rid of it. Then I went on a major binge that night and had candy and two more turkey dogs. I didn’t purge that because my stomach still hurt from earlier. I think I worked all the calories off though. I’m going to do better today.

I went to church this morning and haven’t eaten yet. But it is only 10:41am. To keep my self busy, I’ve started reading the gossip girl books. They’re actually kind of triggering because the main character has a mild ED. And they’re really entertaining. I’ve also been spending more time on my hair and makeup. That keeps me preoccupied a little longer. I hope I can just make it on water and some fruit today. That’s my plan.